Sunday, October 25, 2009
I don't know why i'm blogging, nobody ever comes here anymore, but i just felt like it.
Yes, i changed my blogskin. I realised i'm a little too proper when it comes to things like this. Things must look appealing, or nothing too patriotic and those kind of things. So, after getting sick of staring at my black and white creation of my ALPOH blogskin, i decided why not let the pros do it and here it is. Kinda different from what i always have so it looks really fresh.
Moving on, school sucks. Been getting pretty crappy results. Failed Geog too, bloody paper didn't consist of a single error so i couldn't yell "Fuck you for not giving me that one mark i need to pass this paper" at the teachers. But on the brighter side, my CA was an A1 so hopefully it'll pull up my overall a little. Maths and science sucked too. Lots of careless mistakes and bad choices of questions. I am ranked 35 for maths and that totally sucks. On the brighter side, i used to be 38. English, no need to say much. a 62 for overall. I'm pretty pleased with it but i could have done better for compre 2. I am very pleased with my chinese though. A 64 if i didn't remember wrongly. I didn't hand in a letter, so maybe, just maybe i could have gotten a borderline A2 but oh well. My fault so can't blame anyone.
Training.. Torturous. I'm losing interest in the game. I know it. I am no longer willing to put in effort into it. By the way, did i mention that we have to go back to school 4 times in a row every week to train for next year's South Zone? Yup, how exciting.. I'm am going to find reasons to miss them. I'm going to go look for a new sport to work on. Be it my all time favourite horse-riding, baseball, bowling or tennis. I'm just going to occupy myself with things. Come to think of it, my grandmother is right. I always give up on things half way. Is it because i have a short attention span? Hmm.. This question is open for debate.
So, school ends in a week's time. Can't wait for that. I'm going to start pestering my father to let me go jog once in a while and sign me up for the riding programme. Gonna save up for an electric guitar and macbook too. I'm going to be so broke.. Also, with new guitars mean a need to practice more! My fingers are going to be so sore..
That's that and i will end it like that now.. Bonsoir!
Peace-x
Yes, i changed my blogskin. I realised i'm a little too proper when it comes to things like this. Things must look appealing, or nothing too patriotic and those kind of things. So, after getting sick of staring at my black and white creation of my ALPOH blogskin, i decided why not let the pros do it and here it is. Kinda different from what i always have so it looks really fresh.
Moving on, school sucks. Been getting pretty crappy results. Failed Geog too, bloody paper didn't consist of a single error so i couldn't yell "Fuck you for not giving me that one mark i need to pass this paper" at the teachers. But on the brighter side, my CA was an A1 so hopefully it'll pull up my overall a little. Maths and science sucked too. Lots of careless mistakes and bad choices of questions. I am ranked 35 for maths and that totally sucks. On the brighter side, i used to be 38. English, no need to say much. a 62 for overall. I'm pretty pleased with it but i could have done better for compre 2. I am very pleased with my chinese though. A 64 if i didn't remember wrongly. I didn't hand in a letter, so maybe, just maybe i could have gotten a borderline A2 but oh well. My fault so can't blame anyone.
Training.. Torturous. I'm losing interest in the game. I know it. I am no longer willing to put in effort into it. By the way, did i mention that we have to go back to school 4 times in a row every week to train for next year's South Zone? Yup, how exciting.. I'm am going to find reasons to miss them. I'm going to go look for a new sport to work on. Be it my all time favourite horse-riding, baseball, bowling or tennis. I'm just going to occupy myself with things. Come to think of it, my grandmother is right. I always give up on things half way. Is it because i have a short attention span? Hmm.. This question is open for debate.
So, school ends in a week's time. Can't wait for that. I'm going to start pestering my father to let me go jog once in a while and sign me up for the riding programme. Gonna save up for an electric guitar and macbook too. I'm going to be so broke.. Also, with new guitars mean a need to practice more! My fingers are going to be so sore..
That's that and i will end it like that now.. Bonsoir!
Peace-x
Mada mada dane 9:51:00 PM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Mada mada dane 2:54:00 AM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
What the fuck? What is this? I have found a reason to leave. Them. I'm tired of pretending. But if i don't, i'd be left in an even worse state. Why am i so pathetic? I need to start again, i failed on my first try. My past caught up with me, i need a second chance. But can i give myself one more try? Can i put everything behind me, hurt the ones i care for and move on for my own selfish reasons? But will they even feel anything? I doubt it, what am i to them? I have no reason to stay. It's time i faced the fact that i'm alone. I have always been, what makes me think things are any different now?
Mada mada dane 12:25:00 AM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
Friday, August 28, 2009
My fingers are fucking aching right now. I bet it's from the teacher's day rehearsal. Owie.. It looks hideous! It's like as if a patch of skin has fallen off the tip of your fingers and the outer layers have hardened, leaving a wrinkly sort of layer of skin. Not a pretty sight. Not when your four main fingers are like that along with the side of your index finger.. *Shivers*
So, anyhoo. Spent the last couple of hours rehearsing, as i mentioned. Both council and own acts. For those of you who don't know, i'm playing rhythm to Way Back Into Love and If We Hold On Together. Own act and council act respectively. My first debut, cool huh? Nuh uh, a total shocker to be correct. My cheeks flushed up red, as if i were drunk and started hyperventilating. Arista too, her cheeks went rosy. Like really rosy and she hyperventilated for a short while too. just a really short while. Thank goodness we were behind the curtains. ^^
We spent about two hours practicing how to walk. Yeah, i didn't type it wrongly. W-A-L-K, walk. But guess what, i meant walk down the aisle. HAH! I'm sorry, i'm really lame. Speaking of being lame, Mei Chen is going on and on about how 'cool' i am. Is that really true? I feel really flattered but it doesn't seem to .. er.. coincide with my character. Not to me at least. Anyways, straying away now. Blah blah blah, everybody was feeding off each other's anger as no one was cooperating. I was one of the not so cooperative ones, i admit. I found it really difficult to when you've got all your good pals next to ya. Got a big scolding from Mendi, well, actually it was a yelling but who cares, and we shushed down for the whole of 5 mins. Awesome, power sia!
So yeah, finally was the Oysties turn to play and then the panicking started as i have stated. After that went to watch some break dancing and then another band played. After that, when everyone had left, the council went up to practice the finale song. Actually, it was just Rachel Chan, Khin Wai and me on guitar and Arista on drums, as usual. Played once and then left. Joy, Mei Chen, Arista and i then sat down at the study area for some chit chat. We were joined by soon-to-be-birthday-girl, Lim Hui Nee, not long after and we started talking about how cute Mr Dan(e4's blonde caucasian public speaking hottie teacher) is. Turned out everyone has a crush on him. XD
Okay, so then dad picked me up and then went home. Ate Spaghetti Carbonara for dinner, sang in the shower and then tadaa! Got online. and blogged. So, i gotta go now. talk to you peeps some other time. Bonsoir!
Peace-x
PS. I totally agree with Hui Nee the the Damien 6 FR is the thang! XD
So, anyhoo. Spent the last couple of hours rehearsing, as i mentioned. Both council and own acts. For those of you who don't know, i'm playing rhythm to Way Back Into Love and If We Hold On Together. Own act and council act respectively. My first debut, cool huh? Nuh uh, a total shocker to be correct. My cheeks flushed up red, as if i were drunk and started hyperventilating. Arista too, her cheeks went rosy. Like really rosy and she hyperventilated for a short while too. just a really short while. Thank goodness we were behind the curtains. ^^
We spent about two hours practicing how to walk. Yeah, i didn't type it wrongly. W-A-L-K, walk. But guess what, i meant walk down the aisle. HAH! I'm sorry, i'm really lame. Speaking of being lame, Mei Chen is going on and on about how 'cool' i am. Is that really true? I feel really flattered but it doesn't seem to .. er.. coincide with my character. Not to me at least. Anyways, straying away now. Blah blah blah, everybody was feeding off each other's anger as no one was cooperating. I was one of the not so cooperative ones, i admit. I found it really difficult to when you've got all your good pals next to ya. Got a big scolding from Mendi, well, actually it was a yelling but who cares, and we shushed down for the whole of 5 mins. Awesome, power sia!
So yeah, finally was the Oysties turn to play and then the panicking started as i have stated. After that went to watch some break dancing and then another band played. After that, when everyone had left, the council went up to practice the finale song. Actually, it was just Rachel Chan, Khin Wai and me on guitar and Arista on drums, as usual. Played once and then left. Joy, Mei Chen, Arista and i then sat down at the study area for some chit chat. We were joined by soon-to-be-birthday-girl, Lim Hui Nee, not long after and we started talking about how cute Mr Dan(e4's blonde caucasian public speaking hottie teacher) is. Turned out everyone has a crush on him. XD
Okay, so then dad picked me up and then went home. Ate Spaghetti Carbonara for dinner, sang in the shower and then tadaa! Got online. and blogged. So, i gotta go now. talk to you peeps some other time. Bonsoir!
Peace-x
PS. I totally agree with Hui Nee the the Damien 6 FR is the thang! XD
Mada mada dane 9:14:00 PM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
Monday, August 17, 2009
I feel so darn fake. Maybe my life is fake. I feel like a fucking bootlicker. Maybe i am a bootlicker. I hate it, i despise them. I detest them. But what am i to do when i feel like one? How can one hate oneself so much? I can't stand it, i need a way out. This is cowardly.I should not be like that. it is downright pathetic. I ruined my life. But what am i to do when all these unnecessary are going through my head in every stupid second of my bloody son of a bitchin' life. I know i'm screwed, i know my family is fucked up. I hate it, but i can't blame them for their stupidity. Everyone makes mistakes, but what the fuck is this that i'm doing with my life? It makes no sense, it's not me. I'm at a crossroad and i'm walking down the wrong path. That's not the way i want it to be. I want to break out of this vicious circle, i want something different, something real and new. But what the fuck do i end up doing? I ended myself in the middle of no-fucking-where! I don't get it, i just don't get it. what in God's name am i doing wrong? How can i twist it? How can i change this wrongdoing into something that is good but also something that people shy away from? How can i change my course of life? I'm sick of it, i don't want to compare myself to them anymore. I don't want to satisfy them, i don't want to completely live up to their expectations, i don't want to worship the very grounds that they walk on. But what can i do?
Mada mada dane 11:20:00 PM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Had a practice session with Arista, Mei Chen and Joanne yesterday. We met up at City Hall at round 1230h and then headed off to look for the studio. That's right, we practiced in a studio! Totally wacky. So yeah, walked over to Peninsula Plaza and then got lost in it. Well, not exactly. We were looking for a shop that didn't seem to exist. Turned out that the website isn't up to date. I think we walked in circles for like, half an hour before we finally gave up and called the studio guy. Mei Chen talked on the phone (SO BRAVE!!) while the rest of us just stared at her.. Blah blah blah, got a time slot, blah blah blah, walked in circles again, blah blah blah, found the place.
I wasn't really expecting much out of the studio. It's just a soundproof room the size of your bedroom that has lots of amps and a drumset, keyboard and mics all over the place. The guitars were all placed outside the soundproof room and guess what? THEY HAD SCHECTER DIAMOND SERIES GUITAR AND BASS! The jack wasn't coopperating so i didn't play with the shecter guitar for long.. But i totally love the darkish sound. =D
So, we practiced for about an hour. Then we all started pigging on Joanne's chicken rice. (Sorry, Joanne!) Then practiced a little more. Arista and i got really hungry ad we walked over to Funan after taking orders. Went to Mac, bought food and then Arista stuffed scorching hot and saltish fries into my ' ulcered' mouth. Ouch.. I'm kidding, it's just one but it still hurt. So we snacked and then all of a sudden, the studio guy came in with what we thought was a transexual ad started walking around the room while we were in the midsts of our song. We were like, ' La la la la la~ .. .. .. Er? what the heck? .. .. .. 5 mins later .. .. .. Why haven't they left?' The ' transexual' felow was just blabbering on about how the guitar amp is spoilt and it just so happen to be the one that i plugged my guitar into and it seemed to be working fine to me. So, they just kept talking and yapping and blabbering about the Randall Amps while the four of us just stood there, wondering what the hell is going on.
Then the 'transexual' fellow turns to us and says: " Why are you still here? Your time is up."
We were all like, " Er.. Okay.."
So we packed up and left. Mei Chen was pretty pissed with the guys attitude but i think the Milo cooled her down a little. Did i mention that i stole two batteries from the studio clocks? That might be why we forgot the time. Oh well, who cares. THey can afford a pair of batteries anytime. Saw my step-cousin Brian smoking but paid no heed. It seems that all the Brians ( or Bryans) i know all smoke.. Anyhoo, left for Fairmount Hotel at Raffles and then met my aunt and mum there.. .. Along with my sis.. Blah blah blah, stayed over night at the hotel, blah blah blah, got back home today. Gonna go see if my GTA is working now. BYE!
Peace-x
PS. Happy Belated Birthday M. Shadows!! =D
I wasn't really expecting much out of the studio. It's just a soundproof room the size of your bedroom that has lots of amps and a drumset, keyboard and mics all over the place. The guitars were all placed outside the soundproof room and guess what? THEY HAD SCHECTER DIAMOND SERIES GUITAR AND BASS! The jack wasn't coopperating so i didn't play with the shecter guitar for long.. But i totally love the darkish sound. =D
So, we practiced for about an hour. Then we all started pigging on Joanne's chicken rice. (Sorry, Joanne!) Then practiced a little more. Arista and i got really hungry ad we walked over to Funan after taking orders. Went to Mac, bought food and then Arista stuffed scorching hot and saltish fries into my ' ulcered' mouth. Ouch.. I'm kidding, it's just one but it still hurt. So we snacked and then all of a sudden, the studio guy came in with what we thought was a transexual ad started walking around the room while we were in the midsts of our song. We were like, ' La la la la la~ .. .. .. Er? what the heck? .. .. .. 5 mins later .. .. .. Why haven't they left?' The ' transexual' felow was just blabbering on about how the guitar amp is spoilt and it just so happen to be the one that i plugged my guitar into and it seemed to be working fine to me. So, they just kept talking and yapping and blabbering about the Randall Amps while the four of us just stood there, wondering what the hell is going on.
Then the 'transexual' fellow turns to us and says: " Why are you still here? Your time is up."
We were all like, " Er.. Okay.."
So we packed up and left. Mei Chen was pretty pissed with the guys attitude but i think the Milo cooled her down a little. Did i mention that i stole two batteries from the studio clocks? That might be why we forgot the time. Oh well, who cares. THey can afford a pair of batteries anytime. Saw my step-cousin Brian smoking but paid no heed. It seems that all the Brians ( or Bryans) i know all smoke.. Anyhoo, left for Fairmount Hotel at Raffles and then met my aunt and mum there.. .. Along with my sis.. Blah blah blah, stayed over night at the hotel, blah blah blah, got back home today. Gonna go see if my GTA is working now. BYE!
Peace-x
PS. Happy Belated Birthday M. Shadows!! =D
Mada mada dane 5:22:00 PM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Time for an update.
It's been so long since my last update. I guess i'm starting to neglect my blog ever since i got hooked onto twitter and Facebook. Plus the fact that i hardly get internet access at home. Sigh.. So, a quick recap on what's been happening. Actually i don't know what's been happening.. -.- On to the more recent happenings then.
School's as boring as ever.. No need to elaborate on that. Er, i should be performing with Arista, Shermin, Mei Chen and Mao Wei(?) on teacher's day. Gonna be their guitarist, i'm pretty stoked about that. I hope i don't screw up though, a little nervous about it. I'm working on the transition from Cm - A# - F part, it's coming along pretty well. The next thing i need to work on would be the solos. Shermin's got the solos covered but i thought maybe i could just add a little flavour to it. It's cool to do a solo too, you know. Anyhoo, had my first practice with them yesterday before training. I thought i screwed up on my part so i gotta work a little harder. Did i mention i'm really jealous of Mei Chen's voice?
Had training after that. We finally used the new Indoor Sports Hall yesterday! We were so glad as we didn't have to be under the hot sun anymore. It also means that i'm gonna lose my tan sooner or later. No more nice copperish brown skin.. =( Then again, i can always call Violet out for a game at 2pm in the afternoon. Hehe! =P So, did warm up and then the torture came. We did 3 sets of 20 standard push ups and tuck jumps. I was okay with the push ups, although i must admit i didn't like the hold on the last one, but the tuck jumps were hell for me. I thought my legs would give way to my all-to-heavy body. We then ran a total of 33 rounds around the basketball court. I swear, we could have ran only 30 but someone had to be so oblivious to her surroundings that it was only until three rounds later did she realise that it was her turn. >=/
Did the usual drills and then receiving. Did servicing and then the Sec 2s got called together for some servicing lessons. So embarrassing.. =/ Did as we were told for about 10 mins. Grace got hit by a ball in the face just as she said "Don't curse me la!" - referring to getting hit by a ball. It was Arista's fault, not mine for once. =D So tra la la la la, got pulled in for match with Arista, Joy and Jie En. We joined Xiao Yan and Wan Lin. We were given a five points advantage and we lost! Can you imagine that? We had to do 20 suidices for that. Oh my gosh.. But thank goodness that Jerry brought it down by half, so we only did 10. I was dying by my sixth. Completed it and then piak*! I dropped dead to the ground. No, just kidding. I dropped to my knees. It was so unfair that only the three of us Sec two had to run while the rest sat there and just.. .. .. stared. Well some cheered.. Moving on, had a second set which we were all really reluctant to play. We were all so drained, 33 rounds around the basketball court + 10 suicides = xP (death).. But we still had to do it. Played with the usual people, just that Olivia was playing Open.
We were given an eight point advantage this time round. After what seemed like forever, we finally won! Poor Seniors had to do the suicides now. They had my heart-felt sympathy. The Sec 2s went to keep the net. It took Julia, Arista, Joy, Jie En and me 5 mins just to figure out how to loosen the string that was attached to the pole. It was so ridiculous, it turned out that i was turning the turning thingy the wrong way.. =.= (I can't remember what the turning thing is called so i'm just gonna leave it like that.) Had a one-on-one basketball match with Jie En right after that. We played half court. As usual, i got a lot of defensive fouls but otherwise, i'd say we're pretty much on par in terms of scores. Skills wise, no question, she's better. Erm, got really tired and we both collapsed. Haha. Choosing of jersey and then we play A-B-C with Joy, Wan Lin, Olivia and Hemkhama. I was on a winning streak! I was so glad, it totally boosted my mojo, seeing that i'm always losing when i play with Violet!
Went home and then blah blah blah. Went to school today and found out Arista caught a fever. Hope you get well soon, Arista!! Survived through school hours. Volunteered to help out for I&E tomorrow, i wanted to skip lessons since there was only 10 people who are gonna be in class. Well, 8 actually, now that Calista and i are gone too. The teachers were like ' -.-", how to teach like that?' So went out with Joy, Grace and Reuel for lunch then got home. Started practicing on the song and then did this post. I guess i gotta go now. This is one really boring post.. But when are my posts ever interesting anyways? So, see ya!
Peace-x
It's been so long since my last update. I guess i'm starting to neglect my blog ever since i got hooked onto twitter and Facebook. Plus the fact that i hardly get internet access at home. Sigh.. So, a quick recap on what's been happening. Actually i don't know what's been happening.. -.- On to the more recent happenings then.
School's as boring as ever.. No need to elaborate on that. Er, i should be performing with Arista, Shermin, Mei Chen and Mao Wei(?) on teacher's day. Gonna be their guitarist, i'm pretty stoked about that. I hope i don't screw up though, a little nervous about it. I'm working on the transition from Cm - A# - F part, it's coming along pretty well. The next thing i need to work on would be the solos. Shermin's got the solos covered but i thought maybe i could just add a little flavour to it. It's cool to do a solo too, you know. Anyhoo, had my first practice with them yesterday before training. I thought i screwed up on my part so i gotta work a little harder. Did i mention i'm really jealous of Mei Chen's voice?
Had training after that. We finally used the new Indoor Sports Hall yesterday! We were so glad as we didn't have to be under the hot sun anymore. It also means that i'm gonna lose my tan sooner or later. No more nice copperish brown skin.. =( Then again, i can always call Violet out for a game at 2pm in the afternoon. Hehe! =P So, did warm up and then the torture came. We did 3 sets of 20 standard push ups and tuck jumps. I was okay with the push ups, although i must admit i didn't like the hold on the last one, but the tuck jumps were hell for me. I thought my legs would give way to my all-to-heavy body. We then ran a total of 33 rounds around the basketball court. I swear, we could have ran only 30 but someone had to be so oblivious to her surroundings that it was only until three rounds later did she realise that it was her turn. >=/
Did the usual drills and then receiving. Did servicing and then the Sec 2s got called together for some servicing lessons. So embarrassing.. =/ Did as we were told for about 10 mins. Grace got hit by a ball in the face just as she said "Don't curse me la!" - referring to getting hit by a ball. It was Arista's fault, not mine for once. =D So tra la la la la, got pulled in for match with Arista, Joy and Jie En. We joined Xiao Yan and Wan Lin. We were given a five points advantage and we lost! Can you imagine that? We had to do 20 suidices for that. Oh my gosh.. But thank goodness that Jerry brought it down by half, so we only did 10. I was dying by my sixth. Completed it and then piak*! I dropped dead to the ground. No, just kidding. I dropped to my knees. It was so unfair that only the three of us Sec two had to run while the rest sat there and just.. .. .. stared. Well some cheered.. Moving on, had a second set which we were all really reluctant to play. We were all so drained, 33 rounds around the basketball court + 10 suicides = xP (death).. But we still had to do it. Played with the usual people, just that Olivia was playing Open.
We were given an eight point advantage this time round. After what seemed like forever, we finally won! Poor Seniors had to do the suicides now. They had my heart-felt sympathy. The Sec 2s went to keep the net. It took Julia, Arista, Joy, Jie En and me 5 mins just to figure out how to loosen the string that was attached to the pole. It was so ridiculous, it turned out that i was turning the turning thingy the wrong way.. =.= (I can't remember what the turning thing is called so i'm just gonna leave it like that.) Had a one-on-one basketball match with Jie En right after that. We played half court. As usual, i got a lot of defensive fouls but otherwise, i'd say we're pretty much on par in terms of scores. Skills wise, no question, she's better. Erm, got really tired and we both collapsed. Haha. Choosing of jersey and then we play A-B-C with Joy, Wan Lin, Olivia and Hemkhama. I was on a winning streak! I was so glad, it totally boosted my mojo, seeing that i'm always losing when i play with Violet!
Went home and then blah blah blah. Went to school today and found out Arista caught a fever. Hope you get well soon, Arista!! Survived through school hours. Volunteered to help out for I&E tomorrow, i wanted to skip lessons since there was only 10 people who are gonna be in class. Well, 8 actually, now that Calista and i are gone too. The teachers were like ' -.-", how to teach like that?' So went out with Joy, Grace and Reuel for lunch then got home. Started practicing on the song and then did this post. I guess i gotta go now. This is one really boring post.. But when are my posts ever interesting anyways? So, see ya!
Peace-x
Mada mada dane 4:08:00 PM
0 Don't let your guard down../a>
0 Don't let your guard down../a>